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For the  second time in two weeks, I am once again stuck at home because I’m sick.

It’s much more worse this time though, which makes everything, well, worse.

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On, and just to add, my computer still isn’t working. The technician that diagnosed it recommended a reformat. *sigh*

A blank page in front of me. A glass of ice cold drinks (soda is preferred but this iced tea will do for now) and some chocolates on the side.

A white screen with a blinking cursor staring right at me. Sweets to get my brain going beside me.

Let’s see where they take me.

June 2009 has been a memorable month for me - for several reasons; some good and some bad:

I went to US (first time!) for a week. It was for work. I then got sick there (no fever, just some colds, hehe) which had me on sick leave for a week upon coming back.

A week at home, away from the office. Now that’s something that doesn’t happen very often.

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And as perfect as the timing may seem, my computer stopped connecting to the internet the second day of my week-long stint at home.

At first I though it was a problem with the modem. But after buying a new one (and even testing it on a different phone line), it turned out the problem wasn’t there after all.

A virus was the next thing to come to mind. A scan using a trusty (yet free) virus scanner led to nothing. A scan using another virus scanner (on trial version) led to complications - the computer either hangs or shuts down by itself on the 11% mark of the scan.

I then pulled the hard disk out to have my uncle scan it using the same virus scanner which doesn’t seem to want to work for me (but this time installed on his hard drive). Got a couple of Trojans but no big ones from that scan.

Was that it?

Will it finally go back to working as it should?

Well, I can’t really tell. Setting everything up again (since I cleaned the whole CPU in the process) proved futile - I can’t make it boot up anymore.

*sigh*

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I wonder if there’s still a chance of reviving this computer. It actually already turned six last May.

[Work in progress]

It’s not just the temptation.

It’s an adDiQtion.

We don’t lose the “kid” in us as we grow older.

Sometimes, no matter how “serious” or “mature” the topics of our usual conversations are, how much our actions affect other people, or how much difference we make n society (or on another scale), our eyes can still light up as a child’s would.

Joy can still be clearly visible across our face.

And we can still get that kind of happiness like a kid would… even with the smallest of things.

We don’t lose the “kid” in us.

Some days are just plain normal.

Days when you feel as if life is just passing you by - there’s nothing noteworthy happening, and things seem to just follow the normal routine. Things are just the way they are; the status quo. And sometimes, you’d rather have these days than other kinds since it’s like “playing things safe”.

Some days are just plain bad days.

Days where nothing seems to go well. Days when things you don’t want to happen, happens. Sometimes these days are few and far apart from one another. Other times it seems this is becoming your normal everyday routine already. Fret not though, these days aren’t what’s going to happen forever.

Some days start out good but end up as bad days.

Days when everything was going right, everything was happening the way you picture them, and then slowly or suddenly everything changes. These days you’d want to just remember the good parts, and forget everything else that happened. Unfortunately, that’s not always possible. For these days, the good come with the bad.

Some days start out bad but end up being really good ones.

Days which you thought was just another bad day when at some point something or someone turns things around. You no longer remember the bad part, just the good ones. It’s as if the rays of the sun not only peeked through the gloomy clouds, but instead shattered them, making everything appear warm and happy. Sometimes these days are what we remember the most.

Some days are just plain perfect.

Days when everything goes according to plan, or even better. Days when everything’s so good you’d start to wonder why this is happening, or if this could be real. Remember, these days are possible, even if everything else that’s happening is telling you that these will only happen in dreams. And these are the days which make going through the other king of days worth it.

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And some days are something else.

Days which turn out to be even better than expected, or imagined. Days when things doesn’t go according to plan, when unexpected things happen, and yet those only make these days better. These are the days that take you by surprise, amuse you, and give you hope - something you’ll bring when it’s the other type of days’ happening. These are the “way even better days”.

I felt like I should write something today…

…and yet here I am staring on a blank screen. Ideas swirling in my head - on what I could write, on what I should write, on what I would write.

But every time I try to start writing, there’s nothing.

And then I thought: “Maybe there’s really nothing to write. Nothing to say… at least for now”.

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And then, as usual, I will just say “It’s ok”.

Not because I can’t say anything else. But because really, “It’s ok”.

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No good byes. See you soon.

Rainy days came earlier than expected this year.
The times indeed have changed.

What didn’t change though is that -
The sun will still shine later on;
There will still be a rainbow after the rain.

Sometimes we have to do things we don’t really want to do. Things that might make us unhappy; or might take away things that are making us happy.

But this is part of life.

We do it not because we’re masochists (at least I’m not; and I’d like to believe most people aren’t); rather because we know it’s the right thing to do. Or at least it’s something that we have to do.

Delaying it is like delaying the inevitable. We may be able to prolong our stay up in the sky above, but that doesn’t mean the fall won’t come anymore. Sometimes, the fall might be even harder.

But this is part of life.

*sigh*

We got a warning in our office that there’s a virus spreading which might delete all computer files on April 1.

The warning didn’t seem like it’s only for the office computers so I researched it further when I got home. I found out it indeed is threatening to affect a big number of PC’s all over the world.

Interesting bits from CNN (here) and the NY Times blog (here).

April Fool’s joke? Or serious threat and a possible cause of depression for many?

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For me, let’s just say it’s something I don’t want to risk.